Some people

As if I don't have enough to deal with in my life, I have people who want to bring me down. The bad thing is, they don't want to tell me to my face, and I have to figure it out from A.) How they are acting, and B.) from what others think based on words and actions.

First of all, I do not EVER try to get attention through my loss of my child. I didn't ask for this. I would give my life not to be in this situation. It is what it is, and that is all I can deal with. If you are jealous because of me losing my child, then you are truly a sick, sick person. If your jealousy is because you know you won't ever be in a similar situation, and you won't get the "attention" I am getting, then you're equally as sick. Do you honestly think I want this attention, for a negative thing that has happened in my life? Do you honestly think that I am happy that Kylie died? Do you have any common sense at all? COME ON! I hate every minute of my life that I don't have Kylie with me. I feel guilty, angry, hurt, betrayed, broken-hearted, and broken in general. You're jealous of that? Get a life.

I will continue to talk about my child WHENEVER, WHEREVER, HOWEVER, and to WHOMEVER I choose, and you will NOT make me feel bad about it. I'm through with letting people get to me so easily. I should not be dealing with this. I am allowed to grieve in my own way, in my own time, and however I see fit. I don't do anything for you. I do it for me, my family, and my baby girl.

If you have such a problem with doing things for me, then just don't do them. If you have a problem with me talking about Kylie, don't talk to me. If you have a problem with any "attention" I get because of my grief, then don't bother with me anymore. I'm through with your crap.